Monday, April 14, 2014

Trusting Jesus -- Peter, Judas and Us



                                                           Palm Sunday Year A 2014
Father Adam Trambley
April 13, 2014 St.John’s Sharon

As we read Saint Matthew’s passion account today, we are confronted with the stark reality at the core of our faith.  We believe that Jesus was crucified and died, and we believe that the way of the cross leads to resurrection and eternal life.  That wondrous yet difficult reality challenges us.  We have to decide whether we can trust Jesus, even though he challenges us to take up our cross and follow him.  Then, if we want to follow, we have to decide to do what is necessary to be able to follow.  In our gospel we see Judas and Peter answering these questions in different ways.

Our primary choice is whether or not we believe that Jesus knows what he is talking about.  Is he really the Messiah, the Son of God, and king of a coming Kingdom whose citizens live differently than the world does?  Is he really able to overcome death with resurrection, for himself and for us?  Is his path of life really important and good for us, or are we better off following our own plans and desires?  In short, do we trust what Jesus is saying to us or not?

In the passion, we see Judas and Peter.  Judas did not trust Jesus and failed.  Peter did trust Jesus, and still failed.  Yet the choice they made is an important one.  Judas’s unwilling to trust Jesus resulted in two tragedies. 

First, Judas betrays Jesus to the religious authorities for thirty pieces of silver.  While a number of factors, including simple greed, probably contributed to his decision, his major stumbling block was that he didn’t believe that Jesus was who he claimed to be or that he would be able to do what he said he would do.  If Judas truly trusted Jesus to be the bread of life and light of the world having living water, and if he trusted that Jesus was going to rise from the dead on the third day, there is no way he would have betrayed Jesus to the chief priests.

The second tragedy is that after he realized what he had done, he still could not trust Jesus.  He did not believe that Jesus could forgive sins or bring new life from death.  Once he realized how wrong he had been, he could not see a way forward because he only trusted his own ability to save himself.  He did not believe Jesus could save him.  Instead, he throws his silver coins at the chief priests and hangs himself.

Peter, however, does trust and believe in Jesus.  He believes that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God.   He loves Jesus and wants to be with him, even unto death, trusting that what Jesus wants for him is still better, even if he dies, than anything else.  He tries his best, following Jesus to the courtyard of the High Priest.  But Peter didn’t listen to Jesus about how to resist temptation, and he ends up denying Jesus three times.  He might have avoided that denial had he stayed awake with Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane and prayed, but he fell asleep instead.  Nevertheless, his denial does not end tragically because he still trusts Jesus in the end.  He weeps bitterly after the cock crow, but he doesn’t end his life.  He still trusts in Jesus, even if he doesn’t understand the how or why of Jesus crucifixion, or what is really coming next.

For us, the passion offers the same two decisions. 

The first is whether or not we trust Jesus.  Do we believe that if we delight in his will and walk in his ways that we will come to eternal life?  Do we believe that if we deny ourselves, take up our cross and follow him that even if we die, we will live?  Do we believe that if we live our lives according to Jesus’ plan and purpose for us, we will live a life of greater love, joy, peace, and freedom?  Or would we rather take our chances with our own agendas, desires, and self-seeking?  Our first decision is to trust Jesus or not.  When faced with the stark reality of Jesus passion and death, do we still want to follow him?

Hopefully we do, which is why we are here this morning.  That brings us to the second decision: are we willing to do the work to be able to follow Jesus, even in life’s difficult moments.  Jesus gives us instructions on how to persevere and live according to his commands in those difficult times.  He tells Peter, James, and John in the Garden of Gethsemane to stay awake and pray that they do not fall into temptation as they face the upcoming doubts, struggles and difficulties.  That same advice is good for us, especially in those difficult times when our temptations are strongest and the consequences of falling into them most dire.

Jesus first says, “Stay awake,” which means stay awake with him while he prays.  This command is actually very good news.  Just like when Jesus takes Peter, James and John apart to a deserted place while he prays, when we are in distress, he will take us apart and pray for us.  Most of us have probably felt so overwhelmed sometimes that we don’t feel like we can pray effectively.  We don’t have to.  Jesus prays for us, on our behalf.  He is our great high priest.  God hears him, and his prayers will be answered, even if the answer is difficult for us in the short-term, like it was difficult for Jesus when he prayed two thousand years ago.  We just need to stay awake while Jesus prays. More than even not sleeping, we are supposed to be present in mind and heart to Jesus.  Staying awake means not just turning on the TV or grabbing more wine or whatever it is that deadens us so that we don’t have to be present either to the situation we are in or to Jesus’ prayers to transform it.  To help stay awake some people use prayer beads, or read the Bible, or say memorized prayers.  Certainly distractions happen in prayer, but making the decision to stop and be present as Jesus prays for us is essential, and not giving ourselves that time in prayer means we are falling asleep.

Jesus second instruction is to pray not to fall into temptation, because when crises occur in our lives, we are always in danger of letting our own guard down like Peter did in the High Priest’s courtyard.  We want to avoid the self-destructive behaviors that can accompany difficult moments.  We also want to avoid hurting other people because we are in pain and just want to lash out at somebody.  We pray not to be led into temptation so that as Jesus prays for healing and grace we don’t allow ourselves to become conduits for further pain and suffering.  This prayer is so important that Jesus gives it to us as part of the Lord’s Prayer: “lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.”

Staying awake so Jesus can pray for us and praying not to be led into temptation are strategies we can use during any difficult time to continue to follow Jesus.  When we find ourselves in times of great sickness, facing the death of loved ones, job loss or family disasters, or just afraid and overwhelmed by life’s trials, setting aside time just to sit and let Jesus pray for us while we ask to avoid being put to the test will help us live the life we want to live. 

Of course if, like Peter, we just fall spiritually asleep instead, Jesus still loves us. He will still reach out to us.  We will have caused more pain to ourselves and others, and have more wreckage to clean up.  But whatever we do, God can still save.  Judas didn’t know that, but Peter did and we do, too.  If we decide to trust Jesus, then eventually his love will bring us to him.

So in this Holy Week, recommit yourself to trusting Jesus in all things.  Then do the work of staying awake and praying not to be led into temptation, so that you are able to live out your life trusting him and following him, even when life seems as difficult as his cross. 

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